I feel like I have been missing out on life. And part of that reason is because, nearly 80% of my friends are dating XD and here I am single. I mean, I'm not jealous, don't take it the wrong way! I feel like as if I'm missing out on life 'cause of it. I mean...as a human, we have feelings for SOMEONE in our life. And I think (being me who has no interest in dating or anything) I have found that "someone". Is this part of puberty or what?! It's an interesting feeling to be honest.
Today at school, I hung out with my besties. And out of those besties, I'm close to five (Jason, Sarah, Sortia, Abigail, and Emily). Today, Sean and I were hanging in the Atrium "cuddling". Well I don't know if it is cuddling to be honest. I sat on the steps that lead to the Atrium and Sean comes over and kind of sit/lays on me. I wrap my arms around him and give him a little hug and just stay like that. (It was kind of a reflex, I wasn't really thinking.)
Then we talk and talk until one of my friends just walk over and try to tie my shoe laces together. Sean just suddenly goes protective and wards them off like my personal body guard. I mean, that could be normal among friends right?
Anyways we stay like that for a while, and I have to admit, it felt nice. It made me feel warm in the inside. The bell rung so we can head to our first period, and Sean wouldn't get off. He claimed that I was too comfy to lay on and wouldn't stand up. I hugged him and said, "Pleaseeee~~". He got up and I went over to this table where I lay my books down to grab my stuff. When I turn around to head to first period, Sean holds out his arms for a hug.
Me and him hug nearly everyday, like friends, but today it was different! He hugged me tighter, with more feeling. And before I left, I swear that he kissed my head before he left. The rest of the day I felt confused. I mean, yeah I like him, okay let's be honest here, I love him. I've crushed over him for quite a while now to think about it. His ex, which is also my bestie (Abigail), was totally fine with it since she claims, "It was my mistake to even date him." So...yeah....I'm very confused, and kind of happy to be honest. Is this normal ;-; ?
Maybe I'm over reacting?
Do you think I'd be with him?
Maybe not?
Maybe so?
If things truly are as you say, then you know what? Go for it. Ask him to go see a movie with you, or to come hang at your house. And, knowing how wimpy a lot of boys are, you're probably gonna have to make the first move. Don't be afraid - do it! If he's worth it, then he'll either A. let you down easy and things will go back to normal or B. you'll ride off into the sunset forever happy
ReplyDeleteThat's what I'm scared of though, what if he lets me down hard?? ;-; luv is tuff, but I'm gonna risk it :3 afterall, I wanna keep my reputation as daredevil (not extreme daredevil but moderate)
DeleteHahaa, yep, gotta keep up that reputation. I never pegged you as one who spent a bit of time crushing over someone, and by the sounds of it, this all happened pretty fast. I wish you the best of luck and pleasy mccheesesy update us on what happens!!!
Deletehehehe I will^^
DeleteThis my first time actually reading one of your blogs (sorry for not reading sooner) but wow. This is pretty cool. Anyways, see ya on Monday! Au reviour!
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